zoe, loss and love

i lost my girl this weekend. my other heartbeat for the past 11 years and 3 months, zoe was gentle and wise and taught me worlds about love, selflessness and joy. she was a gift to my life and also, i am learning, to many other people's lives who didn't get much time with her. but that was zoe. all about sharing the joy, exuberance, the moment, her love. she was and is an irrepressible spirit.

a sudden and dramatic downturn in her health that shocked us all took hold of her thursday. i am grateful that the worst of her pain was short-lived, but i know she was in discomfort for a while. she was such a trooper and she loved us so much she gave us everything she had. she stayed strong until she could say goodbye to her dad. and then the cancer we didn't know she had took over and steamrolled her down in her last 2 days. she tried to rally with the help of her vet team, but she didn't have a chance against the virulent disease.

i am heartbroken beyond words. the emptiness in our home is overwhelming. a friend comforted me by telling me the depth of the loss and sadness i am feeling now is a testament to the connection and love zoe and i and her dad shared and still share. to not grieve her deeply would be a dishonor to our bond.

grief is a process. right now, i am lost without her. but i know our love will live on. she is family. we will treasure her for the rest of our lives. now and always, zoe, you are missed. i love you, pumpkin!

liz

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[missy]

oh liz. i so understand where you are coming from.i lost maggie 2 years ago, 2 days after christmas, after 13 1/2 years. we were able to be with her and say goodbye but it didn't make it any easier.
they are truly our family.
For Every Dog An Angel - order it. It's a simple book, but it helps.
We got another dog at the end of that week, because we couldn't stand the silence. it was too loud. but it took me much longer to bond with him than it took john.
maggie's playing with zoe now - they're happy and cancer-free, and its always sunny, and there is grass to lie in and roll in.
much love,
me